Goodbye UPSI IS MY ALMA MATER

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Me and The Karate Kid Film Release

When The Karate Kid, directed by John G. Avildsen was first released on 22th June 1984, I had not even come out from my mother’s womb. Over a quarter of a century later, Harald Zwart stepped in Avildsen's place to direct the remake of the movie. Both film versions share almost the same plot. If Avildsen’s directed version sets in 1980s and also in the country of America, Zwart’s film sets in the postmodern world and takes place in China and partially in the States. Most of the incidents in Zwart’s remake version are adopted from Avildsen’s movie, starting from Dre Parker and his mother’s transfer to China to the former’s experience while seeing Mr. Han and a number more to list till Dre’s victory over his opponent, Cheng in the final bout of a kungfu competition. If Miyagi calls Daniel LaRusso as Daniel-san, Han addresses Dre Parker with the name Xiao Dre.

In spite of all the similarities, there are actually some changes made to adapt to the different time frames and circumstances in both movies. At least one can notice the use of sophisticated gadgets like mp3 handphones in the remake movie compared to Avildsen’s version where in the 80s, those gadgets were not popularly used. Besides, Japanese karate is taught by Miyagi to Daniel in contrast to Chinese kungfu which is learned by Dre from Han. During both protagonists’ bouts against their respective opponents, even though both are injured and they stand on their single legs, Miyagi tells Daniel to focus but Han does not say anything to encourage Dre. Daniel eventually lands his kick to Johnny’s (the antagonist of the original film) chin while Dre kicks on the top of Cheng’s head to bring him down.

When the remake of The Karate Kid was released yesterday, its tickets were sold like hot cakes. I had to miss two occasions to watch this film with my brother before I could grab the tickets to watch it at Cathay Cineplex in JB City Square. Both of us had to sit at the first-row seats because most of the back seats were occupied by other movie freaks.

My Nature of Quick Temper

I once threw a bunch of keys on my laptop keyboard and the keys bounced and hit the LCD screen of my laptop. It cost me a laptop and I had to buy another laptop. The whole incident was indirectly caused by my classmate who kept igniting my feeling of hatred towards him. I do admit that my jealousy towards him was the chief cause behind this feeling of hatred.

A few months back, there was a day at night, upon learning that a girl I used to like had a boyfriend, I smashed a mirror into pieces. I was upset. Why didn’t she tell me about her status and her availability earlier? Why did she give me a false hope by letting me keep her company in Kuala Lumpur on a Saturday evening? Why did she accept my Valentine gift? All these questions came across my mind when I became insane that night. I’m glad this feeling of crush has lost its appeal and I don’t have to see her again.

Last night, I was pissed as a workmate of mine urged me to send two plates of cooked food to some customers quickly in such a rude way. Everyone knows how I work at my workplace. I was not intended to slow down sending the food to the customers. I only wanted to check what the two plates of food were because they looked almost the same even though they were not. I did not talk to her that night. As she happened to tap her palm on my shoulder, I pushed her palm away. Fuck that bitch!

After I went back from work, I could not help yelling at another workmate whose current residence is same as mine. We stay at a hostel rented by our boss. This stupid Filipino disturbed and distracted my friend and I who were watching musical video clips by trying to imitate loudly the sound of a man singing a song played on my laptop. But only before I was about to post this entry, we shook our hands as a sign to forget the friction that we had.

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People from all walks of life have always dreamed to be rich. But not all of them are lucky enough to end up becoming wealthy. So, people look for keys to get rich. In fact, there is a number of keys to be blessed with loads of money in possession. Some people start their own business but still find that they do not profit much to be deemed rich from their respective fields of business. Others work hard throughout their entire lives only to realize that they are still paupers. If those two ways are the legal means to earn bread and butter and get rich, some rich-person wannabes even go extreme by resorting to illegal ways of making money which are understood by many. Licensed lotteries and other games of chance are however deemed legal because parts of the profits are pocketed by the government. There is however an issue worth a debate. How rich is being rich? Are there criteria or guidelines to qualify one to be called a rich person? How much does one need to earn in order to wear the tag, 'the rich person'? RM 100K? RM 1 million? People may drive BMWs and Benzs on the road but still do not call themselves as rich people.

Ip Man 2

When Ip Man (Donnie Yen) comes to Hong Kong, he faces many difficulties to open his own school of martial arts. He has to beat a few kungfu masters from many different kungfu schools before a joss stick finishes its burning. He overcomes them. Master Hung challenges Ip Man. The duel between Master Hung (Sammo Hung) and Ip Man is a draw. Eventually, Ip Man is allowed to teach Wing Chun kungfu to his students. An arrogant British boxer, Twister (Darren Shahlavi) invites all kungfu masters to challenge him in the ring. Master Hung accepts the boxer's challenge. The former is defeated and died inside the ring. Upon his death, Twister throws a challenge to any Chinese kungfu master to fight him. Then, Ip Man answers to Twister's challenge at a media press. When the bout between the whiteman and the Chinaman takes place, the latter earns the hard-earned victory against the former. The most touching part in this movie is when Ip Man says that he does not fight Twister to prove that the Chinese kungfu is better than the European boxing. In fact. he mentions that everyone regardless of any skin colour should respect other people including those who do not share the skin colour with him or her. This movie is full of sentiment. When I watched the movie, I kept swearing at the arrogant white boxer.

Let's start afresh

All that happened yesterday were indeed a series of nightmares though there were couples of sweet memories since I set my foot on this soil of Tanjong Malim. For better or for worse, all the things that happened in the past have turned into facts. They are not subject to change. All the ups and downs that I have experienced can only be deemed memorable. They are attached to my mind after all. There is no way for me to go back to where I started. I can only walk this journey ahead bearing in mind that I'll never repeat the same mistakes over and over again. I do hope that every day I wake up from my sleep, I will become a brand new person.

I'm sorry

I would like to offer my apologies to my dad, relatives and those who have been pinning their hopes on me to do my best in my studies. However, I have failed them. I promised them to give my best shot in my studies but I did not. If someone needs to take the fall, the person is me. Perhaps, teaching courses are not what I wanted to pursue in the first place, but I should have tried my best to produce my best assignments throughout the eight semesters at my university. I should have also prepared well before the final exams. After my graduation, I hope I will give my best in my work and at the same time look for better opportunities in life. After all, I am not a teacher, let alone an educator.

Between a Good Samaritan and Judas Iscariot

A good Samaritan is someone who offers help to a stranger. On the other hand, Judas Iscariot is the person who betrayed Jesus Christ. Good Samaritans are indeed good and kind. They are willing to help strangers whom they do not even know about their true identities. But, can we say the same about Judas Iscariot? Some people may label him as a villain. Others may even call him as a fcuking bastard. A number of bad names can be used to address him, but doesn't the bible say that Jesus came to this world to redeem sins of millions and he would eventually be crucified? So, it was actually predestined that the event of crucifixion should have taken place in order to save the souls of millions which were about to perish in the hell. As believed by many Christians, Jesus was indeed crucified. The events of his death and resurrection mark the victory of those who believe in him to triumph over the evils. They are not bound to the hell anymore. The bible which is the all-time top selling book on earth tells us about all these. Jesus is the saviour of Christians it says. But without the role of Judas Iscariot, portraying the villain of the Christ's death, could the destiny of men be changed? They were sinners after all. So, their sins have been redeemed at the expense of not only the blood of Jesus Christ but also the role played by Judas Iscariot in plotting the death of the former.

We Cannot Choose. Why? Why? Why?

Once, I really wanted to study at a vocational school after my secondary three. But I ended up becoming a Science-stream student at a stupid school. I hated that so much. After I completed my STPM, I really, really wanted to be a lawyer. This time, I was again fcuked-up. I was offered a stupid course at KUSTEM. I did not even apply for the programme of Bachelor of Management in Policy and Social Environment. I hated that as well. Presently, I hate to become a teacher. I don't even like to write lesson plans but this is what I have to do before each of my every lesson. But there is one thing I enjoy to do. I like to learn English. I want to perfect my English. The only thing is, I hate to teach English. I really want to break away from the wall of hypocrisy. After all , I have been wearing the mask that covers all the things I hate so much. I want to take it off right now.

Everyone has to face the day

It happened that I was inspired to produce this entry. The saying as written above makes sense for many situations. Eg:

Everyone has to enter his/her new day
Everyone also has to face his/her death

Everyone has his/her birthday
Everyone also has his/her sad day

Every working individual will receive his/her pay on his payday
Every working individual also looks forward for a holiday

Every student will have his/her exam day
Every student definitely looks for a holiday

Every undergraduate looks forward for his/her graduation day
Every undergraduate hands in his/her assignment on that fixed day

Every student teacher waits for the observation day.
Every student teacher absolutely waits for a holiday

Every bridegroom/bride-to-be waits eagerly for his/her wedding day
Every bridegroom/bride-to-be also waits for his/her wedding registration day

And the lines go on until...

Sick of faulty English

Why people keep using English words they are not sure of their meanings? Can they even look up those words in a dictionary before using them? Some of them are even pig-headed. Even if you try to correct them, they still think that they are right. Heck! If they do not have faith in me, the least they can do is to verify whether or not my words are correct. They can refer to any dictionary if they do not trust me. Some people use the verb 'improvise' wrongly. They think that to improvise is to improve. 'Improvise' means to make or do something using whatever is available as written in the Oxford Advanced Learner's dictionary. Other people do not even know how to distinguish between the meanings of 'post' and 'pose'. You do not write "Teacher posts a question to students". You should use the verb 'poses' instead of 'posts' in that sentence. That's all for now. It's time for supper. Bye.

Why Do I Blog?

I started as an underdog. My English was not good when I first came to my current alma mater. In fact, I did not really answer well when interviewed for a scholarship. I even did not obtain an 'A' for my Grammar paper. As time passed by, I have become a better English language user than I used to be. However, I will not say that my English is good because my language is not yet perfect. There is still room for improvement. I guess that was the reason why I started to blog. I read others' blogs, give feedback and study how bloggers use the language cleverly. Blogging is indeed an effective way to learn English at least for me. So, in order to improve my language proficiency or at least maintain it, I have to blog.

A Second Degree?

A friend of mine has informed me about the call of enrolments for potential undergraduate students at Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM). One of the courses offered is Bachelor of Business Administration. The course can be completed via distance education programme (PJJ) in four years. I really like to pursue another undergraduate degree as I am not on my way to obtain the first class degree for my current studies. Heck! Maybe I need to enrol for another degree course to hold my head high. But, I do not know whether or not I can meet all conditions to walk my talk. Talk is cheap. A number of challenges will wait for me should I insist on taking this path. First of all, where can I find the money to cover all the needed expenditures? Even if I can meet this condition, will this come at the expense of neglecting people that have been good to me? These people have been supporting me financially. So, I think they need to be rewarded for their good deeds. Second of all, can I really obtain the first class honours for sure? What if I fail in my bid again? Then should I bang my head against the wall if I fail to keep my promise? Maybe I need to seek for guidance from above. If Heaven can hear me now, I do hope He will guide me to make up my mind.

Alanis Morissette - That I Would Be Good

This song is quite meaningful at least to me. The message conveyed in this song is about the need to be optimistic even though at times, circumstances and odds are against us.

Distinguished readers of my blog,

Open your eyes, your ears, your mind and most importantly your heart to listen to this song freely.

I still love you

To my sweetheart,

If you read this, I want to tell you my feeling for you has never become faded. In fact, I cannot get rid of you from my mind. That day when you told me that you had a boyfriend, my feeling was like the lines from the song "Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough", ...it makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain... The weather that day was cloudy. It was almost raining. Even though lately I appeared to be unfriendly towards you, actually I feel upset every time I bump into you. I feel upset because I am not able to be your the-other-half. I may have lost the battle. But, I do hope that I have not yet lost the war. Lately, I have serious business to deal with. I have not made much approaches to win your heart since you text-ed me that day. I am still looking for the right time and the right place to tell you, "I love you!" I do hope that Heaven will have mercy on me.

What True Love Means - my last entry

Sometimes, its not necessary to with your loved one even though you really love her. It is good enough if you still can be her friend. I should be happy because she has found her true love and happiness. Wish her all the best.

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This is probably my last ever entry on my blog. After this, I will not participate actively in the blogosphere. However, I will not delete this blog. Fair enough. I've quit playing Yahoo Messenger, Facebook and even quit blogging. I will now focus on other more important things. I'll also learn how to handle my emotion wisely.

That's all for today. Goodbye!

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

She's The One

The first day I saw her, I knew she was the one that I wanted so much. But she seems to be not responsive, or I appear to have not done enough to win her heart. I really, really, really like her. I am really so in love with her. Every time I think of her, I feel suffocated. I am sure she is even more important than my own life. But how can I expressmy feeling to her? I am scared to be a loser. I don't want to lose. If I have the opportunity to tell her, I would like to say "I love you" to her.

Perfect 7

if i have only 7 years to live
i will wait for my BELLE to fall for me

if i have only 7 months to live
i hope SHE will always by my side

if i have only 7 weeks to live
i will enjoy all HER favourite things in life exclusively with her

if i have only 7 days to live
i will send HER 11 roses every day

if i have only 7 hours to live
i swear to keep myself awake to enjoy every sweet moment with HER

if i have only 7 minutes to live
i hope SHE will sing me one of her favourite tunes before i close my eyes

if i have only 7 seconds to live
i hope SHE will not shed a single tear drop and see me in agony

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most importantly if i 'm gone for good
SHE will still seek for her happiness

Don't Miss the Boat

Once, when I was a lost sheep (in fact I'm still a lost sheep), my cousin gave me this saying. When it's time for the second coming of Christ, those who follow Him shall live eternally. Those who don't shall perish.

Now, I' m telling you about another story. But this saying still apply. Faint heart never won fair lady. When there's an opportunity for you to win that lady's heart, just go for her. Do not wait until that fair lady feel that you've lost your appeal. She may turn to another hunk. If that really happens, then serve you right!

So, what you can do is ask for guidance from above. Heaven, have mercy on us!

Man is doing and Heaven is seeing

This saying is translated directly from the Chinese proverb, "ren zai zuo tian zai kan." It means no matter what we do on earth, there are eyes in Heaven which will watch our every single action. So, stop doing evil things. God is watching us. Angels are watching us. Even Lucifer and his troop of devils are watching us also. So, pray that Heaven has mercy on us.

Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as in heaven.

Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our sins
as we forgive those
who sin against us.
Lead us not into temptation
but deliver us from evil.

For the kingdom, the power,
and the glory are yours
now and for ever.

Amen.

(Matthew 6:9-13)

Trust Heaven? Better I trust myself

Somebody from above is trustworthy? My foot! I better trust myself. Not to say that I am an atheist. I am just agnostic, believing what I perceive, what I hear and what I see. Isn't there a saying that says God will help those who help themselves? An Islamic saying also shares the same principle with its famous saying which goes by "Tuhan tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum selagi kaum tersebut tidak mengubah nasib mereka." OK. Now you have been praying for days and nights, but no divine responses have answered your prayers. Will you blame your God? If you will, then go bang your head against the wall. Why don't you ask yourself what have you done besides praying? I am sure Heaven will only have mercy on you if you have done something to achieve your goals and dreams.

Another unproductive day

It seems that I need to bang my head against the wall. Another day has gone. I am still doing nothing. I have not written anything on my lesson-plan book. I have not completed my ROS report yet. Jesus Christ! What have I been doing? The one-week break should be used to do beneficial things. But I have been wasting most of the time period doing stupid things. Time and tide wait for no man as the saying goes. I think I need to seek for divine help. Heaven! Again I beg You to have mercy on me!

How to break a jinx?

Now, I am really sick of wearing many tags. Those tags make me feel bad. They showcase all the evil things about myself. Sometimes, I ask myself, "For how long you want to remain like this? Lazy! Emotional!" I even tell myself, "You're a loser!" But I seem not to give a damn to these hurls meant to bring me back to my state of consciousness. I am easily get hooked to many stupid things. Facebooks, YM and entertainments. Geez! I have to kick all these habits away. I am not worth of the great respect and admiration shown by my students at SMK. Methodist. I am still searching my true self. I want to unleash my full potential. Heaven, please help me! I want changes to take place within my own microcosm! The obstacle is myself! Heaven, help me to conquer my own feelings, thoughts and actions!

Another bombshell is dropping from the sky

I've had enough of this. Problems seem to look for me or I seem to look for problems. My teacher training life has been bothering me. ROS report, lesson plans and choral speaking. Now, my personal problem is haunting me. The same old problem. I really don't know where I am heading to. The path ahead is unclear. Perhaps, my graduation in August will be in jeopardy. Heaven! I really need Your help and guidance to clear all these messes. Please have mercy on me!

Heaven, have mercy on me!

Being an underachiever is not good for me. Wearing this tag has been affecting my level of self-esteem and confidence deeply. Something needs to be done somewhere. What I can do now is put countless efforts to change the status quo. I hope no accident will happen. I can only plan and discharge my plan but somebody from above will have to determine whether my plan works or not.

Real-Life Theatre

This theatre will be about me and my self. The moon, the trees, the soil will become the audience. If there is no accident, this theatre will probably take place after the clock struck midnight on this coming Sunday. Well, this theatre is very important for me. I hope that Heaven will have mercy on me.

I Come to Realize

I was once a fool. I liked a girl like a madman. She was my angel. I did not win her heart though.

Now, I realize that the girl was an opportunist. She hurt me deeply. There will come a time for me to take revenge. She will pay for it.