Friday, February 26, 2010

What True Love Means - my last entry

Sometimes, its not necessary to with your loved one even though you really love her. It is good enough if you still can be her friend. I should be happy because she has found her true love and happiness. Wish her all the best.


This is probably my last ever entry on my blog. After this, I will not participate actively in the blogosphere. However, I will not delete this blog. Fair enough. I've quit playing Yahoo Messenger, Facebook and even quit blogging. I will now focus on other more important things. I'll also learn how to handle my emotion wisely.

That's all for today. Goodbye!

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

She's The One

The first day I saw her, I knew she was the one that I wanted so much. But she seems to be not responsive, or I appear to have not done enough to win her heart. I really, really, really like her. I am really so in love with her. Every time I think of her, I feel suffocated. I am sure she is even more important than my own life. But how can I expressmy feeling to her? I am scared to be a loser. I don't want to lose. If I have the opportunity to tell her, I would like to say "I love you" to her.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Perfect 7

if i have only 7 years to live
i will wait for my BELLE to fall for me

if i have only 7 months to live
i hope SHE will always by my side

if i have only 7 weeks to live
i will enjoy all HER favourite things in life exclusively with her

if i have only 7 days to live
i will send HER 11 roses every day

if i have only 7 hours to live
i swear to keep myself awake to enjoy every sweet moment with HER

if i have only 7 minutes to live
i hope SHE will sing me one of her favourite tunes before i close my eyes

if i have only 7 seconds to live
i hope SHE will not shed a single tear drop and see me in agony


most importantly if i 'm gone for good
SHE will still seek for her happiness

Monday, February 22, 2010

Don't Miss the Boat

Once, when I was a lost sheep (in fact I'm still a lost sheep), my cousin gave me this saying. When it's time for the second coming of Christ, those who follow Him shall live eternally. Those who don't shall perish.

Now, I' m telling you about another story. But this saying still apply. Faint heart never won fair lady. When there's an opportunity for you to win that lady's heart, just go for her. Do not wait until that fair lady feel that you've lost your appeal. She may turn to another hunk. If that really happens, then serve you right!

So, what you can do is ask for guidance from above. Heaven, have mercy on us!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Man is doing and Heaven is seeing

This saying is translated directly from the Chinese proverb, "ren zai zuo tian zai kan." It means no matter what we do on earth, there are eyes in Heaven which will watch our every single action. So, stop doing evil things. God is watching us. Angels are watching us. Even Lucifer and his troop of devils are watching us also. So, pray that Heaven has mercy on us.

Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as in heaven.

Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our sins
as we forgive those
who sin against us.
Lead us not into temptation
but deliver us from evil.

For the kingdom, the power,
and the glory are yours
now and for ever.


(Matthew 6:9-13)

Trust Heaven? Better I trust myself

Somebody from above is trustworthy? My foot! I better trust myself. Not to say that I am an atheist. I am just agnostic, believing what I perceive, what I hear and what I see. Isn't there a saying that says God will help those who help themselves? An Islamic saying also shares the same principle with its famous saying which goes by "Tuhan tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum selagi kaum tersebut tidak mengubah nasib mereka." OK. Now you have been praying for days and nights, but no divine responses have answered your prayers. Will you blame your God? If you will, then go bang your head against the wall. Why don't you ask yourself what have you done besides praying? I am sure Heaven will only have mercy on you if you have done something to achieve your goals and dreams.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Another unproductive day

It seems that I need to bang my head against the wall. Another day has gone. I am still doing nothing. I have not written anything on my lesson-plan book. I have not completed my ROS report yet. Jesus Christ! What have I been doing? The one-week break should be used to do beneficial things. But I have been wasting most of the time period doing stupid things. Time and tide wait for no man as the saying goes. I think I need to seek for divine help. Heaven! Again I beg You to have mercy on me!

How to break a jinx?

Now, I am really sick of wearing many tags. Those tags make me feel bad. They showcase all the evil things about myself. Sometimes, I ask myself, "For how long you want to remain like this? Lazy! Emotional!" I even tell myself, "You're a loser!" But I seem not to give a damn to these hurls meant to bring me back to my state of consciousness. I am easily get hooked to many stupid things. Facebooks, YM and entertainments. Geez! I have to kick all these habits away. I am not worth of the great respect and admiration shown by my students at SMK. Methodist. I am still searching my true self. I want to unleash my full potential. Heaven, please help me! I want changes to take place within my own microcosm! The obstacle is myself! Heaven, help me to conquer my own feelings, thoughts and actions!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Another bombshell is dropping from the sky

I've had enough of this. Problems seem to look for me or I seem to look for problems. My teacher training life has been bothering me. ROS report, lesson plans and choral speaking. Now, my personal problem is haunting me. The same old problem. I really don't know where I am heading to. The path ahead is unclear. Perhaps, my graduation in August will be in jeopardy. Heaven! I really need Your help and guidance to clear all these messes. Please have mercy on me!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Heaven, have mercy on me!

Being an underachiever is not good for me. Wearing this tag has been affecting my level of self-esteem and confidence deeply. Something needs to be done somewhere. What I can do now is put countless efforts to change the status quo. I hope no accident will happen. I can only plan and discharge my plan but somebody from above will have to determine whether my plan works or not.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Real-Life Theatre

This theatre will be about me and my self. The moon, the trees, the soil will become the audience. If there is no accident, this theatre will probably take place after the clock struck midnight on this coming Sunday. Well, this theatre is very important for me. I hope that Heaven will have mercy on me.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

I Come to Realize

I was once a fool. I liked a girl like a madman. She was my angel. I did not win her heart though.

Now, I realize that the girl was an opportunist. She hurt me deeply. There will come a time for me to take revenge. She will pay for it.